Wednesday, 29 November 2017

Midlife Mediocrity (or Being Myself – and That’s OK)

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A couple of weeks ago, an article appeared in my newsfeed, called ‘What If All I Want is a Mediocre Life’ by Krista O'Reilly-Davi-Digui. The title called to me so I did something I rarely do on Facebook– I read the article right then and there.

What I read stopped me in my tracks. On a day when the sheer weight of stuff – physical stuff, mental stuff, the stuff not done – threatened to pull me under, it was exactly what I needed to see. I have been fighting all summer to get back on my feet, get back on track, to do all the things. Hell, I have been fighting the battle for ‘perfect’ (or even ‘good enough’) for more years than I can remember!

Using words like small, slow, simple and calm, Krista describes the life she would like. ‘Yes, yes, me too!’ My hand was definitely up for that.

Hustle, improve, strive, acquire, grasp, sacrifice are words she quotes that our culture seems to throw at us regularly. The things we are told to want, to which we should aspire if we’re ever going to amount to anything.

Well, I have sacrificed enough. I have decided to stop fighting.

I am not giving up on my goals and dreams. But I am surrendering the need to try and bash my square-peg life into society’s round hole of supposed success.

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Here’s the thing. We are all unique and we each have talents to bring to the world. However, most of us are not extraordinary, we are unexceptional. But unexceptional doesn’t rank high on the current cultural list of successful traits, so trying to align with that reality has left me (and, I suspect, many others) feeling like a fish that can’t climb a tree.

An army of advertisers, and now a legion of bloggers (seriously, have you seen some of the blog post titles out there?) exploit these insecurities on a daily basis, or even an hourly one, now that we’re all tapped in on social media. It is difficult not to get sucked into a whirlpool of comparison and emerge feeling battered and lacking.

Logically, I know comparison is a mug’s game. I have the utmost respect for those who survive and thrive in the loud and the hustle. And I believe whole-heartedly in self-improvement and personal growth, but what that means to me is never going to be the same as for anyone else.

On an emotional level, I admit to often feeling ‘broken’; that I need to fix something about myself. And perhaps I am broken in a world that values bigger, and faster, and more. I don’t think I was ever built for that world. It occurs to me now that, for me at least, maybe broken is the solution, not the problem.

Rather than ‘manage’ or ‘overcome’ my brokenness for all these years, maybe I should have given in to the lessons it had to teach. I should have accepted its gift, which was a wake-up call to my true self.

The author wrote this paragraph about body image, but I would like to apply it to my whole life:

And I make peace with it and decide that when I lie on my deathbed I will never regret having just been me. Take me or leave me.

This is what I am going to do – make peace with myself – starting now, so that when my number is eventually up, I may have forgotten all the precious time I wasted, trying to be someone else.

Out of curiosity, I looked up the dictionary definition of mediocre. According to the Oxford Dictionary of Current English, it means ‘of only average quality’. Despite the negative connotations of the word, that might be enough for me. I think I’ll take it!

Saturday, 28 October 2017

Menopause Moi Book Review – The Magic of Menopause by Lorraine Miano

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I was provided with a copy of this book to review. However, all opinions are my own. Also, please note that this post contains an affiliate link. If you click on the product image/text link and purchase it through my account I receive a small remuneration, at no extra charge to you.

The first thing I noticed when I received The Magic of Menopause was its size. Compared to other books I have read on the subject, some of which are tomes, it is comparatively small clocking in at 150 pages. This is NOT a judgement on the book or its value however, just my initial reaction.

I actually liked this book because it is short and sweet – an easy read. If this book had been available when I was beginning my menopause journey, it might have been a better resource to start to learn about the changes I was undergoing. Knowledge is power, but too much at once, especially for my hormone-addled brain, was overwhelming.

Lorraine has walked the walk of midlife and menopause. The path that brought her to writing this book was a change in career – from stay-at-home mom to Integrative Certified Health Coach – that, in itself, should be inspirational to those of us trying to make similar changes at this point in life. She has experienced many of the symptoms of menopause that a lot of us do, as well as undergoing a hysterectomy which, while not going through this myself, I know of several women who have at midlife.

In writing this book to help other menopausal women, Lorraine is your biggest cheerleader. Her positivity practically pops off the page! As most of us come to realize, there is a lot to celebrate and look forward to at midlife. Her goal is to get you to that point faster and with less discomfort. In each chapter she gives a list of things to do or supplements to take, nicely summarized again at the end with a checklist to help keep track.

As I recently wrote, midlife health concerns are rearing their head for me. I have no way of knowing if The Magic of Menopause might have helped me back when, but I can still follow Lorraine’s advice and make the necessary changes now. As well, there are a couple of other things that struck me personally.

One was the section on anxiety. I do not remember reading anything specifically about this when I was pre-menopausal. That could be because I had not experienced it at that time, so skimmed over any information as not applicable to me. However, it does seem, anecdotally at least, to be a common complaint amongst women at menopause. Knowing that you are not alone (or going crazy!), and that there are things you can do to help it, is invaluable.

Lorraine also mentions counselling for some of the concerns we face at midlife. That people don’t have to go through problems alone is something that cannot be reinforced - or destigmatized - enough. Having an objective ear and voice to shed new light on my problems was one of the best things I have ever done for myself.

And finally for me, I love that there are Gratitude Journal pages at the end of each chapter. I try to be a positive person, but know that I don’t always succeed. However, one thing I do almost daily is write in my own Gratitude Journal. Finding things for which to be thankful may not turn my day around completely, but it does ground me in an important way.

The last chapter of the book is called ‘Get Your Happy Back’, a theme repeated throughout the book. Lorraine, calling herself our menopausal fairy godmother, having given information and guidance - and a hefty dose of pep, leaves us with a quote that I know I, for one, need to remember:

You’ve always had the power my dear, you just had to learn it for yourself.” – Glinda, the Good Witch

You can find more from Lorraine Miano at or on Facebook at Making Menopause Magical

Sunday, 22 October 2017

Creeping Cholesterol and Burgeoning Blood Sugar

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This is me! While recent bloodwork did not show any anomalies that might contribute to the fatigue I’m currently experiencing, it did show my cholesterol and blood sugar levels edging higher. Although these afflictions are not a forgone conclusion in midlife, I have to face the fact that at 55, being a couch potato with an affinity for crunchy, salty things (fries, potato chips, etc., etc.!) is catching up to me!

And in this, I suspect I am not alone. Much of what I have read about health at menopause cites ways to either overcome or prevent these symptoms as well as the ‘middle-aged spread’ that is often both cause and culprit of them. Not to mention the serious health issues to which they can lead – heart disease and Type 2 diabetes.

This is also not the first time I have had this warning. The same thing happened eight or nine years ago. At that time, I tweaked my diet, which is quite healthy on the whole. I started walking daily and lost fifteen pounds. The numbers improved and I have kept the weight off, so all was well, I figured.

Except that, in recent years, my walking habit has become sporadic, and for the last six months nonexistent. Cooking for one, and a lot of time travelling has been a hit to healthier eating as well. Being honest, a degree of complacency had set in.

Time to get back on track!

I consider myself lucky that I am not yet at the point where medication is required. My doctor would rather that I try to get my numbers under control with diet and exercise once again, for which I am grateful. It requires more of me right now, but will be preferable for the long run. However, I will of course, accept his counsel and his prescription if it means preserving my health.

For now, he has given me a written recommendation to try the Mediterranean Diet – not quite a prescription, but darned close. This diet seems to focus on lots of fruit, veggies, legumes, healthy oils and lean/low-fat protein. It also looks to be in line with many general recommendations for healthy eating that we see on the News or the Internet every week. Nor does it appear to be too much of a stretch from my current menu of chicken and fish, each twice a week, as well as a meatless Monday.

So again, I will adjust – take out some of the beef and pork (bye, bye bacon!!), add in some more beans and pile on the vegetables and fruit. There is even a regular allowance for wine, if you choose - my kind of diet! The hardest part will be making better choices when I eat out. A gourmet burger lounge five minutes from home, plus the ready availability of battered fish here will surely test my resolve!

The Doc also asked me to get active on the regular again. So, I have eased back into walking, slowly and gently at his recommendation. However I go almost every day, and am up to at least half an hour. Some days the pace is unbelievably slow – think herd of turtles stampeding through molasses – but I do it.

I have a follow up to re-do the blood work after three months, and am hoping that the effort I put in, will pay off once more. Everything I have learned highlights the fact that it becomes more difficult to lose weight at this point, especially that spare tire, and I also have a low thyroid working against me on this.

So, if I can get my metrics going in the right direction (down!), I might just be a bit more conscientious about making these good habits stick this time!

If you’ve had success in beating the Midlife Midriff, I’d love to hear any tips, tricks or hints you’d like to share!

Wednesday, 27 September 2017

Midlife Milestone: The Senior’s Discount

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Midlife Milestone: The Senior's Discount

Once we get into our teenage years, it seems life is full of milestones. At that time, our ‘firsts’ are exciting – first kiss, first boyfriend/girlfriend, first job, perhaps. We get our driver’s licence and live by ourselves for the first time. As we move into our twenties and thirties, life is marked by marriages, home purchases, babies and promotions.

Midlife is no different. As menopausal women, we kiss ‘The Curse’ goodbye, maybe kiss our adult children goodbye and say hello to the empty nest. We deal with retirement, ours or a partner’s, possibly exploring new careers as we go.

I recently experienced one midlife milestone that came at me unexpectedly – the senior discount. This is one life marker to which I had not given much thought. Any brain capacity it did take up was with the assumption that I was still wa-ay too young!

And yet here I was, at the gym to renew my membership no less, being told that my profile showed me as owing the senior rate.

“What does that mean exactly – senior rate?” I asked, somewhat dim-wittedly.

The lovely lady behind the counter beamed at me.

“Well, you’re over 55 so you qualify for our senior discount.”

I was gob-smacked! Me, a senior citizen? How can that be? I had already had a ‘how the f*ck did I get here’ moment when I celebrated my fifty-fifth birthday. This was not sitting well! Then I heard the magic words that made it all seem better…

“That’s going to save you over fifty dollars on the year.” Wait… what?

I’m not all about the money, but fifty dollars is fifty dollars, and it’s certainly better in my pocket than someone else’s! My frown was turned upside down.

“Well, in that case, sign me up!” I whipped out my credit card and paid, before she could change her mind.

It may not be as exciting as my first kiss was, but rest assured, now that I’ve recovered from the shock, I will be on the lookout for senior’s discounts every chance I get!

Thursday, 14 September 2017

Managing MS with Purple Spots!

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No, this is not some crazy, new therapy. It is merely a wish. I don’t write much about having MS. The main reason is because I am incredibly lucky. My symptoms are minimal, compared to others, and are quite manageable. There are many who are more qualified than me, both educationally and experientially, to write about the symptoms and challenges of, as well as treatments for, MS.

So what, you may ask, is the deal with the purple spots? Why would anyone want MORE symptoms? To clarify, in wishing for these mythical spots, I would want them to be non-itchy, non-infectious, and - to be truly helpful - fading in and out on a sliding scale reflecting the severity of the MS symptoms being experienced.

The reason? Any person who has an ‘invisible’ illness knows some version of ‘But you don’t look sick.’ Most people mean it as a compliment, and for someone like me, I acknowledge that it’s often true (and for which I am glad!). But I do have my bad days. At those times, I would like purple spots to do the talking for me. When I’m feeling crappy – some version of exhausted and/or numb, in pain… and insecure – explaining that ‘it’s an MS thing’ can sometimes be difficult, even after so many years.

Also, not everyone means it as a compliment. Particularly in the work-place, where it can become synonymous with ‘why are you taking more time off?’ Although I did not take more sick days than anyone else as an average, I know that there were people who believed otherwise simply because they knew I had MS. (This is also one reason why I’m in no hurry to return to cubicle life on a permanent basis!) I believe purple spots would go a long way toward rendering me suitably ‘ill-looking’ for the doubters.

More important than this though, I think purple spots would useful to me. After 25+ years, I know to take care of myself, to manage my MS symptoms. During stressful times however, this can go by the board, despite knowing better. They would be a visual reminder as they faded in – a delicate hue, of mauve perhaps - to pay attention, get some rest, and maybe eat a vegetable.

Life has been hectic for the past six months. There have been exciting things, such as travel and then the plain, old stressful things, such as juggling two homes for two months – alone. I have spent a lot of time on the road with little routine. Eating healthily and at regular intervals, as well as getting enough sleep (a challenge at the best of times, thanks to menopause) became almost an impossibility.

I have paid a price for my self-neglect. I have become more tired and run-down, more MS-y than I’ve been in a long time. Combined with being older, it is taking a while to get some traction for my healing. My GP checked me out, to ensure there were no other issues at play (a couple of minor things – more on those in the coming weeks). Now I have to be patient and just do the right things.

I like to think that purple spots could have helped me avoid this unfortunate turn of events. In reality though, even healthy choices are not always enough to overcome the sheer pace of life. At this point, if these imaginary blemishes were to manifest, I would probably be, head to toe, a shade somewhere between puce and aubergine! Not so attractive, I’m thinking!

Hmm… perhaps I should be careful what I wish for…!

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